As you will possibly be aware, the last few weeks have been “somewhat difficult”.
It would be fair to say that I distinctly get the feeling of “what have we done wrong to deserve this?”.
I know I’ve not helped the situation with a stream of injuries and problems over the past few years. Damaged back, no feeling in my shoulder and fingers. Dodgy knees and equally dodgy sinus’s. Blood pressure and severe stomach cramps.
All that and still unable to hit a decent end of arrows (Ha Ha).
The problem with that is that you focus on yourself to some extent and not on others – not as much as you should least ways.
There is a pang of guilt for what has happened to my beloved wife ( several pang’s if I’m truthful – all for several differing reasons). I can’t help feel that I’m one of the main reasons for what has happened to her.
She has been the hero whilst bits of me fell off. She managed the whole of the house whilst I was stopped from doing “this and that” for fear of making things worse.
I know other things have happened, things at work. Things that I can take no control of.
I am guilty. Some of this is my fault. And even now I’m still not that sure what we are supposed to do now
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